Turning 40 and Learning what it means to Rest
I'm on the cusp of turning 40, and this upcoming birthday carries more significance than any other I've experienced. It seems to be a pivotal moment in my life, as I've been engaging in a lot of introspection lately. I've been contemplating the past four decades, reflecting on the events that have unfolded and those that haven't. I've found myself considering the unexpected twists and turns that life has thrown my way and where these have ultimately led me. Also, I've been contemplating the aspirations and dreams that still reside deep within my heart. It's my intention to be more purposeful in the next forty years. I acknowledge that I might not have another forty, but I've committed to being deliberate nonetheless. No more going through the motions of life; I aspire to live fully aware and present.
As my 40th birthday approached, my husband asked early in the year what I wanted to do to celebrate. Did I want a grand party, or did I prefer a getaway? I've never been one to revel in the spotlight, and with the fullness and busyness of life, especially with five kids, all I truly craved was some rest. I longed for those moments when I could wake up at my leisure, not worry about cooking, and not hear my name called every 30 seconds. I wanted a break from the constant shuttle between games and practices. Don't get me wrong; I consider all these responsibilities as blessings and am profoundly grateful for them, but I was yearning for a brief respite. So, I chose to escape with my husband for three nights and four days. We're fortunate that our credit card points covered the hotel and flight costs, making it an affordable opportunity for us to reconnect and relax on the shores of Miami, Florida.
During this break, I've come to realize that genuine rest isn't merely idleness. I've tried that approach before, and it never left me feeling truly refreshed. On this vacation, my husband and I dedicated the first day to unwinding and listening to the soothing sound of waves crashing on the shore, which helped alleviate my anxiety about leaving our five kids in the care of their grandparents. It's not that I'm concerned for their safety, as I know they are in capable hands, but I'm mindful of the demands of our busy life on the grandparents.
However, after that initial day of relaxation, I found myself recharged and yearning for my routine. So, we maintained it. We rose early each day, engaged in a one-hour workout, witnessed the sunrise, and took a one-hour walk along the beach. I also dedicated time to reading my Bible. Our rest became more active in nature, which I found to be deeply restorative. Please understand that there's nothing wrong with lazing around, and if that's what helps you recharge, more power to you! I believe it's crucial to define what rest means for each of us, as it will vary. In my case, it's about adhering to a routine and maintaining healthy habits that nourish my soul and leave me rejuvenated.
It's fascinating how the Lord instituted a Sabbath day for us. I appreciate the verse in Mark 2:27, where Jesus states, "The Sabbath was made for man, and not man for the Sabbath." This emphasizes that the Sabbath is a gift from the Lord to us. While we are no longer bound by the law and now follow the Law of Christ, there's still wisdom in observing a day of rest. God understands the value and gift of true rest. For each of us, this rest will manifest differently. For me, it's about sticking to a routine while incorporating time for reflection and connecting with those I hold dear. It's about taking a break from the hustle and bustle of extraneous activities and reuniting with my family. Nonetheless, I continue to uphold habits such as exercise, a balanced diet, reading my Bible, walking, and praying because these activities bring me to life.
So here’s to the next forty years. I am praying the Lord’s spirit guides each step. I am praying that He use me as He wills. That I continue to actively rest in HIm and learn to trust Him even when I do not understand. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path” Proverbs 3: 5-6
